So, the truth of the matter is, when my friends and I started in high school, we felt out of touch with the cliques we were naturally associated with. We hung out together, a rag-tag band of people who should have fit in everywhere else, but didn't. We sat in front of a Coffee Machine. I jokingly called us the Coffee Table Rejects. It somehow stuck, over the course of 3 years, and, in this, our 4th and final year, things have fallen apart.

My friends started talking about each other when the other wasn't there. They started making me feel bad for getting good grades - the presumptious snub that came with thinking I was arrogant for being proud of getting a good mark - and, when scholarship applications came around, they started doing those things that almost made me feel bad about those too - they assumed they should find scholarships I wasn't applying for, because, of course, they'd never be able to beat me in something. *insert obnoxious eye rolling smiley here*

I called them out on it. They were upset with me for planning all the parties we were having, and our "16th birthday surprises" that I'd started a tradition of, and our camping trip. No one else seemed to step up to plan things; I naturally took it over. When they finally voiced objections to it, saying I was trying to control their lives, I focused my time on student council, planning dances and spirit weeks and the like. It kept me busy. It also kept me away while they brooded over my disappearance. I tried to explain to them that it was the group that was bothering me, and I wanted to still spend time with them, just, not in that sort of setting.

As of last count, my old best friend still hates me - despite the numerous times I've tried to applogize, beg forgiveness, and tried to reconcile - and half my friends refuse to have anything to do with me. The other half - the ones who saw what I saw - still talk to me, but I don't want to put them in the middle of anything.

I'm moving across the country for school at the end of August. Is there anything I can do to fix this? Or just keep trying to reconcile, without going back to the trash it once was?

Might be the stress of uni applications and scholarship stuff... I'd give them a while, but if they're still hostile like that, I would move on. Sounds like they're not really your friend if they're jealous of you. Most of my friends are way smarter than me (being in IB and all, pretty much everyone is smarter than me) and I'm glad they're going into really competitive programs and getting huge scholarships. I'm happy for them, because they work really hard at getting those grades and ECs. I'm just glad that I made it into university.

From what I've read, you have done everything to better your relationship with your friends.
I was really surprised to read that "They started making me feel bad for getting good grades".
What kind of friends are they? Aren't friends supposed to support each other?
All I can tell you is, forget about friends who don't appreciate you.
They don't deserve to be even called your friends.
You seem like a good person, and I'm certain you're better off without them.

I've been friends with the same girls my whole life. 2 of them i met on my first day in kinderguarden, another joined us in grade 2 and another in grade 4. All through elementry we were friends, we fought from time to time, disputed over boys and hated when we weren't in the same homeroom. Terrified to get seperated in highschool we became even closer. We made friends with so many others in highschool, one other girl (who played soccer with 3 of my bestfriends) joined our group. Though we hung out with the rest of our grade at school, and partied with them, it was always the smae 6 of us who spend the mornings and afternoons doing nothing together. On friday nights when nothing was going on, instead of just going home and going to bed early, we'd sit and talk for hours and hours. It amazes me that after 12 years we still have things to talk about, and we never get bored with eachother. We are past the point of drama in our little group, we are more like sister, when somethings wrong we just say it and get it over with. Next year, me and 3 of the girls are moving to lethbridge, i'm moving into a house with 2 of them. However the other two not coming to lethbridge are going to victoria. Those 2 girls are the 2 i knew in kinderguarden. I'm terrified that we will lose touch. I've never been appart from those 2 girls for more then 3 weeks since I was 5. I'm more scared of losing touch then I am of anything else that involves leaving home.

yeah, i think everyone's got a coupla friends like htat, some more than others (and I have a bunch like that too, it's ok!)
I know they're not bad people, they're just really stressed out right now, being the last bit of high school. Some people are really stressed cuz they're finally realizing they're going to have to settle, b/c they completely slacked and only took crap courses or didn't get goods grades, or they don't have the money saved/planned for university, and they're beginning to feel abandoned, while their friends are off to do god-knows-what in university or college. Like they're more stressed than jealous? I dont know.
Especially at my school, a victory lap is really really rare, especially cuz it is so small, and there are way too many elitist kids, who listen way too much to their parents, and are aiming to become doctors/lawyers, but are now realizing maybe it's not for them, b/c they're getting 60 avgs, or they just really hate the courses they're taking, or they don't have any clue what to do on their own.
I know these past 2 weeks, things have been a bit crazy in my circle of friends, but I'm sure they'll be fine once they've figured out the next few steps, and things cool down.

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